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Oct 21, 2017·

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Hey Charles. Where u at?

Charles Carpenter
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I was fortunate to meet Ivan Kilgore will housed at the notoriously violent maximum security prison known as New Folsom. My name is Charles Carpenter, I’m the author of the books HANDCUFFED and COLORS OF OPPRESSION.

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Apr 5, 2015·

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hiphop4youth
hiphop4youth
Aug 13, 2014·

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SAD! we need to start changing laws to protect the innocent 😦

Jamal Williams
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I don’t think that they really believe that all the time. If I hung on your every word I would catch u saying some stupid shit too.

These individuals have no idea that they are just fools, uneducated in their history of times in the US or the World, they repeat the foolishness and ignorance people blind to their history, actually these fools don’t want to know their history, because if they did, they would be forced to either remain a fool or decide to be leaders of their people.

Dana Lindsey
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Please release Ivan Kilgore , I have known him since he was a kid and never did any wrong, for a man to protect himself and his family is illegal , that’s injustice, release him please

James Smith
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Jun 10, 2014·

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I spent twenty two calenders in the joint, in Texas. I still have 28 calenders on paper and I am currently on parole. Been out almost eleven calenders. I went in at 33 years old, made parole at 44 years old, went back at 46 years old and got back out at 56 years old. Nothing changes the reality of what prison does to your life. I still have dreams almost every night about some form of prison life. Even though I have been released for over ten years. The impact that prison stencil’s on your soul, is indelible. I learned also, that when I use addictive substances, such as alcohol, I cannot correlate with society. And in every event that I have ever used alcohol, it has always led me to confinement of some sort.
While serving time in the Texas Prison System, I made a promise that when I got out, alcohol would not be a part of my life. So from 1993, when I was returned to jail on a parole violation. I kept that promise, almost 21 years now…without a drink. I do not associate with people who drink because its a temptation that I would rather not get involved with. I was required by The Parole Board to attend AA meetings once a month. But they eventually dropped that. And I do not attend any more meetings. Because the responsibility is not on others to keep me free from alcohol. Its my responsibility first to myself, to remain sober. To adjust, and become a responsible law abiding citizen.
When an inmate realizes, that he alone is his own best disciple. He will become conformed to a more rigid path, of straight and narrow. Its his responsibility to subdue and take control of every area that would seemingly return him to prison. Avoid those things at all cost, and take a hard and fast grip on life.
In August, 2003, when I was last released from prison I was 56 years old. No job, and a mere 100 dollars gate money to get started. My greatest advantage point to success was being able to get married, while incarcerated. That allowed me to have a place to go upon re-entry. Nothing is more critical than that. Half way houses serve there immediate purposes. But rules, regulations and authority, creates the same atmosphere that prison had. The restraints that are still applied to you, do not give you flexibility. Because half way houses have a demanding ball and chain effect. That will not allow an ex-felon the opportunity to chill out, and put forth his best effort at freedom. Instant obligation, bears with it anxiety. And when anxiety becomes panic, because obligations become to high to meet. The subjected parolee, begins to take offense to the oppression. And when these signs begin to show through in clarity. The half way house administration begins to attempt to bear down harder to restructure the parolee’s thinking. By contacting The Parole Board, for assistance and seeking more conformity to programming that person, to ” anger management “, ” substance abuse programs ” and ” psychiatric treatment “. These add insult to injury. And tighten the ball and and chain effect of being deeper submerged into disciplinary supervision. Something that most parolee’s are seeking to avoid after being released.
It may be very obvious, that not everyone has a family to go to after release from prison. And its more than evident, that equality for release purposes. Allows for half way houses. Which gives parolee’s an opportunity to be released to a social intermediate place to live. But the greater
effects of having a family to go to creates a better success story. Because in my own case, I had great latitude and flexibility to make my own critical decisions. Without be forced to by some administrative authority forcing me to comply with what they desired me to do.
I realized, at the on set of my release, that I had a responsibility to ” behave myself ” and fall under the ” radar ” of the Parole Boards requirements. I made it my business to ” stop ” being a ” thug ” and marauding society. And as a result, I took what came along. I knew I had to report…so I did. I knew they required me to attend AA meetings, and..I did. I knew that I was required to maintain gainful employment…so I did.
The plus part of it for me, was being able to decide what was best for me. I had a home, a wife, a car, food, clothing and residual freedom.
The freedoms became more and more evident the longer I remained in touch with reality. Being responsible to every one that I was required to touch base with. As a result, I have had some great successes, and a few disappointments…but all and all I have maintained my prison free environment. For almost eleven years now. I do not take my residual freedom for granted. I am still attached to the ball and chain of the Parole Board. And its evident and very prevalent, that I will not ever over come that until 2031. I am still serving the remainder of my 50 year sentence out here in society.
Now returning back to what prison became to me. On July 7, 1979 I was sentenced to 50 years for murder. I cannot say that being incarcerated at that point was my first time in prison. I was drafted into The United States Army in 1965. And I went A.W.O.L. and was eventually returned and Court Mar tailed and sentenced to The United States Disciplinary Barracks at Fort Leavenworth, Kansas. I had a two year sentence. And that introduced me to the confining aspects of prison life. So when I received the 50 year sentence, I had some idea what prison was about. Of course the prison system that I was heading into, 1979. Was corrupted. The administration had set up a self supporting prison system. Which meant that The Texas Legislature wasn’t actually pouring large amounts of cash flow for budgeting the prison. Instead the prison system, had devised a method for using judicially legal slavery. Inmates were being required to manage large amounts of acreage with crops. Everyday you were required to go out in the fields and work…mostly hoeing and removing weeds from the rows in the fields. Everything that the Texas Prison system grew they used. Cotton was used in textile mills and turned into thread and yarn, which was fabricated into cloth, which was sent to garment factories and made into both guard and inmate uniforms. All the crops, were harvested and sent to the institutional canneries and canned. And sent back to the various Units Mess halls to be eaten by the inmates.
From July, 1979 until 1982, Texas Prison’s were operated by inmate guards. These inmates were treated with elite positions. They could do anything within the prison unit they desired. State law prohibited their operation as guards. But the prison administration, illegally used them, as a means to illustrate their efficiency to be a low cost State agency. And these inmates served a better purpose to the administration. Because by using them as guards, ” fear ” could be instituted. Whereas, these inmate guards were named ” building tenders ” and ” turn keys “. And they had direct authority under Warden’s, Building Majors, Lieutenants, and Sargent’s to use excessive force against any so called ” trouble makers “. But in many cases trumped up charges and lies were told. So that they could justify their brutality against inmates. These Building Tenders and Turn Keys, would pack rat you. And usually you’d be killed. Time will not allow me to tell the horrendous acts of violence that I witnessed by these brutal assailants. And they never got charged with any crimes. The Prison Administration would go before local grand juries and testify in favor of their inmate guards. They would be no-billed by the grand juries of the counties where these things happened.
However, there were ” writ writers ” on all units throughout the system. Men who endangered their own lives by filing litigation into federal courts asking for redress against these atrocities. And finally in 1980, those litigants received their day in Federal Court. A trial was had on the merits. And the State lost its battle. And was forced to make sweeping changes, or be forced to give up its penitentiary to the federal courts appointed wardens and administrators. The federal court ordered The Texas Prison System to hire free world people to become guards and remove all use of inmates in any authoritative capacity. They ordered The Texas Prison system to began a building program, to remove inmates who being forced to sleep three deep in a two man cell (one inmate slept on the floor). The prison was severely over crowded. The first unit I arrived at in 1979, had a capacity rating of 900 inmates…but population head counts were around 14 to 1500.
The sweeping changes that had been ordered by the federal court, created a higher resolve for the prison population. And gave them an incentive to become more aggressive. This erupted into prison riots. Because once the inmate guards were determined by the federal court to be illegal. The Prison Administration, had a limited amount of court ordered time to dismantle that program. But The Texas Prison System was not set on changing. They had operated an illegal prison system since the 1800′s. And having some federal court telling they were wrong. Was an insult to their hickology and pride. So when they began to show signs of refusal to comply. The inmate population took over, and unit after unit exploded into riots. Beating down these inmate guards that remained. Forcing the administrations to comply. Shortly there after the federal court appointed a task force of Monitors and a Special Master. To make sure compliance was being carried out.
By 1984 all inmate authority had been removed and free world personnel had been hired to fill the void. But during the transaction of this. Another grave problem was beginning to take root and grow. The gangs were beginning to raise their heads…and territorial wars were being fueled. And this threw the whole inmate population into the cross hairs of problematic trouble. And anyone labeled a ” gang sympathizer ” by another rival gang. That person would be beat up or stabbed to death. So being a loner was the best criteria of the day. On a personal basis I avoided anyone who was tattooed. Or anyone who skin headed. Lightning bolts, Nazi emblems, or any Aryan Nation insignia’s. No Mexican Mafia, no Texas Mafia, No Texas Syndicate, No Aryan Brotherhood, No Mandingo Warriors, No Crip’s, No Bloods. And as causation to establish my adversity to all that. I possess no tattoo’s on my body. Even though I spent one third of my adult life in prison.
The prison system was becoming very lethal by the time I left in 2003. Guards were on the take. They worked for the prison as guards, but also worked for inmates. Smuggling all sorts of illegal merchandise in. In 1986, Walker County had to do a sting operation on The Ellis 1 Unit as it was called back then. The drugs and alcohol were running like water…female guards were becoming vulnerable to inmates, and becoming ” mules ” and giving up sex for money. They became perfect targets, because of financial situations at home. The drug dealers inside the unit, had a stash of cash….and offered greater value to the vulnerable lady guard. Who was being forced to work in a prison environment that was disgusting. So the temptation of making money on the side for inmate favors. Was very appealing. I once worked for a lady over seer who became pregnant with an inmates twins. But with her being married, she used it as if it was her husbands kids. Until they born, red headed and blued. A character trait that had no immediate heredity to her husband or her. She was divorced.
Every incident that I have disclosed, has real life names that could be attached. And not just these few that I have disclosed, plenty more. I served enough time that I could have retired from The Texas Prison system had I been a guard instead of an inmate. At this point….I have to say…that my main thoughts are serving whatever remainder of life I have to the extent of remaining free on this residual freedom that has been granted to me both By God in Christ and man. God has redeemed me from prison and I remain free because of what scripture has shown me. If a man attempts to live by every word that proceeds out of the mouth of God. He will always consider what God has said, rather than what he thinks he himself might do. I use what I have, as a basis to continue to be redeemed. And that redemption is temporal upon earth, but eternal through Christ. So these factors all working together…make for my good…thanks for reading and May God Bless you and keep you close within His heart forever, amen.

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